Have you seen “The Women’s Lectionary” by Wilda Gaffney? I thought it awful but a lot of people do like it and it’s premise might be something you would like.

I spent about two years trying to reconcile the feminine with God, used feminine pronouns, was open to all of that. I wasn’t able to maintain it probably because of theology, but it’s interesting to see what other people have to say about it. :)