I am a fat middle aged woman. I’m fat because of health issues, and yet I’m still scared of the other issues being fat even from a health issue can cause. I want to lose weight, and when I said that to one of these people they blew up and went around publicly saying I was fat phobic simply because *I* didn’t like being fat. I would like to be a little smaller at least for my own general comfort. I’m allowed to want that because it’s my body and I’m actually afraid of getting sicker. There’s not a lot I can do about it, but I did the things I can. I understood what you are saying. :)