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HATE AND FEAR
I Was A Child of Hell
I hated myself more than I hated anyone else
If someone believes that certain kinds of people aren’t human, they can use that to justify treating them in inhumane ways. It’s how my parents justified using military torture techniques on me, and it’s also how they justified their own worldview.
They were okay with the Holocaust because they were anti-Semitic, believing that Jews, as well as Black people, weren’t quite human. These people were fine with the genocide of certain groups.
I hesitate these days to call them my family, because I’ve cut myself off from them on purpose. I have refused to be the neo-Nazi they were hell-bent on raising me to be. I will not continue the life of hatred that I was meant to live.
Of course, seeing as they believe that God creates certain people to go to heaven and certain people to go to hell based on no other reason than because he could, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised they would be neo-Nazis.
What’s even more grotesque is that when asked why God would purposely create people for the sole purpose of sending them to hell, they told me that God can do that because he is holy and to doubt his goodness in all of this is sin.
