If you're a book reader, check out "Accidental" by David W. Peters. He's a great guy and he has much compassion for those involved in drink driving accidents in his book. He talks about how those of us who have accidentally killed someone can cope. It is an unbearable guilt but you're not alone. There are others of us. Hit me up if you like with the email address I left in my other comment, or just check out the Hyacinth Fellowship online.